Merry Christmas, from Theropod to everybody
Dec 25, 2016 23:03:15 GMT
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Post by Theropod on Dec 25, 2016 23:03:15 GMT
This is a long post, but don't be discouraged. The longer paragraph is just some backstory you can skip. I'm here to leave my own letter to all of you.
I'm here to wish everyone a Merry Christmas, no exceptions, if we got beef I'm squashing it here. I hold no grudges toward anyone. I admire that all of you are doing your thing, dreaming... In the end, you may have money, fame, but it's your dream that ensures your breathing makes sense. Your passion in life is truly important. Without a dream, or even a hobby, what's life? It becomes a mere dead-end ride. That's why I think that people who dream, dream wildly, limitlessly, are the happiest. They might never fulfill their dream, but as long as they dream, they have hope, and where there's hope, there's no room for absolute negativity. So keep dreaming. Dream wildly, dream of the most impossible things. Never be afraid of dreaming.
This next paragraph is personal, you can skip it if you want. I'm going to tell you a little bit about myself, so you know where I'm coming from. When you hear a person speak, you like to know where they're at so you can look at them when they speak. Here's a little bit about who Theropod is.
My name is Nicmar, I live in Santa Catarina, Brazil. I am 17 years old and I live with my parents. I am middle class, I'm not exactly poor, I have more than enough to survive. I have gone through some bullshit in my life, however. I was born on the 20th of September, 1999. My parents were poor at the time. My mother was unemployed, my father worked with cellphones to make some bucks so we could eat. We lived in a rented house and my parents struggled to pay the rent. We didn't get to eat the best food, but it was enough for us to survive. It was like that. In 2001, we got our own house. Things were getting worse, but we handled it. I know my father used to spend sleepless nights crying since he didn't know what was gonna happen the next day - he just hoped for the best for us. He didn't let me or my mom know though since he wanted us to feel safe. God knows what a warrior this man was at the time and still is. I might not get along with him too well at times, but hell do I recognize the fight he fought until he won. I started school in 2004. In 2005, another kid cut my arm with his scissors; I still have a scar on my right biceps as a result of that incident. In 2006, my grandfather passed away as our situation kept getting worse. I cried of hunger one day, not in an uncontrollable, loud cry - a rather silent cry, my tears rolled down as I felt an empty stomach. My dad used to pray every night for our situation to get better. And this is where my grandfather's passing comes in - one month later, my father got hired at a job it was basically impossible for him to get. He likes to say my grandfather gave us a little help with the guy up there... I understand why he likes to say that. My father is still in that job, and things got better since then. We got Internet at home back in 2006 and I started to learn a lot of stuff online. I used to do well at school until 2009, I fell down a lot then and didn't get good grades for a good time. I was considered smart by everyone but I just couldn't get myself to do stuff. Financially, we did well - things kept getting better. But as our economy got better, my life got more troubled. I started to get bullied in 2010, shoved to fall into the mud after school, beat up everyday. Teachers laughed at me. Nobody gave a fuck about me. I was just that weird german kiddo. "Go back to pig breeding, german farmer", they said. People beat me up, said cruel things, and my grades were shit. I failed school in 2011 and my grades were awful, but that was weird since I really did know a lot of stuff. But I just couldn't do it. I was bullied for 2-3 years until I decided to fucking fight back and get the respect I deserved. I ain't no shit bag as opposed to what then punks thought. I earned respect... or better say, they feared me. I became popular in 2013 but looking back then, I was empty, friendless - what kept me happy was Pivot and the friendships I made with it. But in real life? They were all fake. I was blind though but life did sharpen me and I won't act like I'm sooo wise because as years pass by I get more clever and learn how to dodge more of life's punches. In 2014, we received death threats from a neighbor. Things started falling apart from then, that neighbor moved in early 2015 so we thought things would get better. But they didn't. Me and my mom had beef and I moved away with my dad in May 2015 to an isolated house, no Internet. I spent 5-6 months there until I came back home and the beef with my mom was solved. My dad had cheated on her and he even used to beat her but ever since October last year, things have been alright. This year, I got a "girlfriend" in early May who was a slut who just kept disappointing me. She broke up with me and it turned out she cheated on me more than once. Bitches be bitches. I had some awfully high dedication to that cocksucker, I did get over the top almost treating her like my daughter, giving her all the freedom possible and protecting her from everything. That was exaggerated, yes, but she didn't need to cheat. Whatever. She's my ex, and an ex means it's in the past. She did make me want to stay single however. Meanwhile, I got into rap music back in March this year, I've gained an interest in becoming a rapper back in April and my passion has been growing ever since. I noticed I want to seriously pursue rap back in August and I have been improving greatly. I joined a Hip Hop forum back in September and I feel so at home there... It's like my second home. We play around, our humor matches, we help each other out, I learn so much from them and I think they do from me too. We write together, we rap, we cypher, we have a good time. My rapping has improved greatly and I'm not the only one saying that. I have a lot of written stuff, I can freestyle, and I keep getting better. It makes me happy. It makes me feel fulfilled. Back in October, the forum got a new user (well, it's a big forum... it gets users everyday, but I wanna highlight this user). I didn't take long to get along with this new user. We have very similar views. We talked so much over PM... We eventually took it to WhatsApp too back in late November, but we still talk on the forum too. This user is a lovely girl from Germany, 21 years old, and she became my girlfriend. It's a long distance relationship and I'm more mature now so I know how to treat her like my girlfriend and not my daughter. She is a truly great person, I am loyal to her. It isn't the biggest relationship in the world, I'll give you that, but we are romantic with each other and we do feel for each other. So, my life has had its issues - I can be sure more will come, but I'm constantly getting more and more able to fight back.
That was a huge paragraph, wasn't it? Maybe you skimmed through it, I don't mind. It's not the most important information, but it's there if you wanna know more about who I am.
I wanna clarify something though. Dinosaurs, all that. I don't have the same interest anymore. But I like them, I like Pivot. It's a hobby for me now, I'm growing up. I'm almost a legal adult. I found myself a dream I want to pursue and I've been doing that. I love hip hop, it's what I wanna do. But do I wanna quit Pivot and the community? Fuck no! I want to thank all of you for the amazing ride this has been, Pivot has been in like, half of my life man. It's a big part of my history, it'll be with me wherever I go. I will never leave, I'll always be here doing this shit and I'll always do Pivot, but it's a hobby for me. My priority is rapping, I found what I'm good at - why is that so? I have been told my rapping is as good as someone who has been doing this for a few years, I've had a couple of people tell me that... But I have been rapping for some months only. But Pivot, Pivot took me time to master. I've been told my way with words was bound to lead me to rapping, I've been told I speak in an artistic manner and rap was bound to come into my life, sooner or later. And it did. I feel so passionate about it. It's the dream, man. It's now or never. I can't let it slip. I'll have success or die trying. But I'll always have a spot in my heart for this community, I'll always get myself some time to make something for you guys and I'll always be here to have a chat. I might get signed one day, what if I become famous? It's a possibility, I build no expectations to avoid falling, but I have hope, lots of it. If I ever become famous, you can be sure I'll be more inactive, but I'll always have that little moment to see how you guys are doing.
So what I wanna say is, cherish what you have, you don't know when things might change. Appreciate everything, your parents, family, everything you have. If you're going through a tough moment... Keep your head up. I won't lie, things can get worse. But don't give up on life. Life could be preparing something big for you. You don't wanna miss on that reward... Life might want you to toughen up first and prepare you to what life wants to give you. Life is just a crazy ride we'll never get out of alive, so embrace everything and life your live to the fullest.
Merry Christmas!
I'm here to wish everyone a Merry Christmas, no exceptions, if we got beef I'm squashing it here. I hold no grudges toward anyone. I admire that all of you are doing your thing, dreaming... In the end, you may have money, fame, but it's your dream that ensures your breathing makes sense. Your passion in life is truly important. Without a dream, or even a hobby, what's life? It becomes a mere dead-end ride. That's why I think that people who dream, dream wildly, limitlessly, are the happiest. They might never fulfill their dream, but as long as they dream, they have hope, and where there's hope, there's no room for absolute negativity. So keep dreaming. Dream wildly, dream of the most impossible things. Never be afraid of dreaming.
This next paragraph is personal, you can skip it if you want. I'm going to tell you a little bit about myself, so you know where I'm coming from. When you hear a person speak, you like to know where they're at so you can look at them when they speak. Here's a little bit about who Theropod is.
My name is Nicmar, I live in Santa Catarina, Brazil. I am 17 years old and I live with my parents. I am middle class, I'm not exactly poor, I have more than enough to survive. I have gone through some bullshit in my life, however. I was born on the 20th of September, 1999. My parents were poor at the time. My mother was unemployed, my father worked with cellphones to make some bucks so we could eat. We lived in a rented house and my parents struggled to pay the rent. We didn't get to eat the best food, but it was enough for us to survive. It was like that. In 2001, we got our own house. Things were getting worse, but we handled it. I know my father used to spend sleepless nights crying since he didn't know what was gonna happen the next day - he just hoped for the best for us. He didn't let me or my mom know though since he wanted us to feel safe. God knows what a warrior this man was at the time and still is. I might not get along with him too well at times, but hell do I recognize the fight he fought until he won. I started school in 2004. In 2005, another kid cut my arm with his scissors; I still have a scar on my right biceps as a result of that incident. In 2006, my grandfather passed away as our situation kept getting worse. I cried of hunger one day, not in an uncontrollable, loud cry - a rather silent cry, my tears rolled down as I felt an empty stomach. My dad used to pray every night for our situation to get better. And this is where my grandfather's passing comes in - one month later, my father got hired at a job it was basically impossible for him to get. He likes to say my grandfather gave us a little help with the guy up there... I understand why he likes to say that. My father is still in that job, and things got better since then. We got Internet at home back in 2006 and I started to learn a lot of stuff online. I used to do well at school until 2009, I fell down a lot then and didn't get good grades for a good time. I was considered smart by everyone but I just couldn't get myself to do stuff. Financially, we did well - things kept getting better. But as our economy got better, my life got more troubled. I started to get bullied in 2010, shoved to fall into the mud after school, beat up everyday. Teachers laughed at me. Nobody gave a fuck about me. I was just that weird german kiddo. "Go back to pig breeding, german farmer", they said. People beat me up, said cruel things, and my grades were shit. I failed school in 2011 and my grades were awful, but that was weird since I really did know a lot of stuff. But I just couldn't do it. I was bullied for 2-3 years until I decided to fucking fight back and get the respect I deserved. I ain't no shit bag as opposed to what then punks thought. I earned respect... or better say, they feared me. I became popular in 2013 but looking back then, I was empty, friendless - what kept me happy was Pivot and the friendships I made with it. But in real life? They were all fake. I was blind though but life did sharpen me and I won't act like I'm sooo wise because as years pass by I get more clever and learn how to dodge more of life's punches. In 2014, we received death threats from a neighbor. Things started falling apart from then, that neighbor moved in early 2015 so we thought things would get better. But they didn't. Me and my mom had beef and I moved away with my dad in May 2015 to an isolated house, no Internet. I spent 5-6 months there until I came back home and the beef with my mom was solved. My dad had cheated on her and he even used to beat her but ever since October last year, things have been alright. This year, I got a "girlfriend" in early May who was a slut who just kept disappointing me. She broke up with me and it turned out she cheated on me more than once. Bitches be bitches. I had some awfully high dedication to that cocksucker, I did get over the top almost treating her like my daughter, giving her all the freedom possible and protecting her from everything. That was exaggerated, yes, but she didn't need to cheat. Whatever. She's my ex, and an ex means it's in the past. She did make me want to stay single however. Meanwhile, I got into rap music back in March this year, I've gained an interest in becoming a rapper back in April and my passion has been growing ever since. I noticed I want to seriously pursue rap back in August and I have been improving greatly. I joined a Hip Hop forum back in September and I feel so at home there... It's like my second home. We play around, our humor matches, we help each other out, I learn so much from them and I think they do from me too. We write together, we rap, we cypher, we have a good time. My rapping has improved greatly and I'm not the only one saying that. I have a lot of written stuff, I can freestyle, and I keep getting better. It makes me happy. It makes me feel fulfilled. Back in October, the forum got a new user (well, it's a big forum... it gets users everyday, but I wanna highlight this user). I didn't take long to get along with this new user. We have very similar views. We talked so much over PM... We eventually took it to WhatsApp too back in late November, but we still talk on the forum too. This user is a lovely girl from Germany, 21 years old, and she became my girlfriend. It's a long distance relationship and I'm more mature now so I know how to treat her like my girlfriend and not my daughter. She is a truly great person, I am loyal to her. It isn't the biggest relationship in the world, I'll give you that, but we are romantic with each other and we do feel for each other. So, my life has had its issues - I can be sure more will come, but I'm constantly getting more and more able to fight back.
That was a huge paragraph, wasn't it? Maybe you skimmed through it, I don't mind. It's not the most important information, but it's there if you wanna know more about who I am.
I wanna clarify something though. Dinosaurs, all that. I don't have the same interest anymore. But I like them, I like Pivot. It's a hobby for me now, I'm growing up. I'm almost a legal adult. I found myself a dream I want to pursue and I've been doing that. I love hip hop, it's what I wanna do. But do I wanna quit Pivot and the community? Fuck no! I want to thank all of you for the amazing ride this has been, Pivot has been in like, half of my life man. It's a big part of my history, it'll be with me wherever I go. I will never leave, I'll always be here doing this shit and I'll always do Pivot, but it's a hobby for me. My priority is rapping, I found what I'm good at - why is that so? I have been told my rapping is as good as someone who has been doing this for a few years, I've had a couple of people tell me that... But I have been rapping for some months only. But Pivot, Pivot took me time to master. I've been told my way with words was bound to lead me to rapping, I've been told I speak in an artistic manner and rap was bound to come into my life, sooner or later. And it did. I feel so passionate about it. It's the dream, man. It's now or never. I can't let it slip. I'll have success or die trying. But I'll always have a spot in my heart for this community, I'll always get myself some time to make something for you guys and I'll always be here to have a chat. I might get signed one day, what if I become famous? It's a possibility, I build no expectations to avoid falling, but I have hope, lots of it. If I ever become famous, you can be sure I'll be more inactive, but I'll always have that little moment to see how you guys are doing.
So what I wanna say is, cherish what you have, you don't know when things might change. Appreciate everything, your parents, family, everything you have. If you're going through a tough moment... Keep your head up. I won't lie, things can get worse. But don't give up on life. Life could be preparing something big for you. You don't wanna miss on that reward... Life might want you to toughen up first and prepare you to what life wants to give you. Life is just a crazy ride we'll never get out of alive, so embrace everything and life your live to the fullest.
Merry Christmas!